The start of the forth month in my freshmen year

     This semester seems really fleeting to me. After going through great pressure of studying for getting good grades in high school, I told myself that I must need to have fun in college. It’s not wrong with having fun or going to parties; however, it’s not right when having fun without taking on my responsibility. All I desired is a fantasy college life with craziness. I hung out with new friends after school all the time even until midnight every day. I left studying aside and just prepared maybe one hour before all my quizzes. Studying in Hsinchu and being away from my parents made me excited.  I feel free and independent as a college student. For this reason, all I wanted and all I did were only having fun. I used to go to parties or stay in couple friends’ house each single night until I received the assessment data. After seeing "flunk" grade on one of my classes, I suddenly realized that I should start to study much more harder than before. I realized that we come to college not just for fun but also for a better understanding of certain knowledge.  

     Feeling guilty and not knowing how to do, I had conversations with several friends and cried to them. It was the first time in my life to receive a “F.” Studying had been everything for me, but somehow it meant nothing after I entered college. The failure reminded me that it is time to move on! I went back home and read syllabus of all my classes, highlighting the importance and trying to figure out rules. Then, I wrote down studying plan for classes which are tough to me. I promise to myself that I will work step by step form now on, keeping in mind that attending college is not for killing time but for learning something!